January Sucks

The last two weeks have been an experience that I do not soon want to repeat.

Last week the temp dropped to negative 20's and 30's...that's straight temp, not wind chill! I have a "Carhart" ninja mask that I so elegantly donned for the frozen-ness that was my life. I can't understand why people were laughing at me at work taunting me saying, "Oh, the California girl thinks it's cold," and, "Poor California girl's cold!" (They always throw in the fact that I am from California; as if being from there makes me a wuss!) All I know is, I may have looked ridiculous, but at least my face didn't freeze off!!!

The weather started to warm up to the teens to lower 30's this week. Rumor has it, this winter will have another cold snap or two before Spring. I just keep reminding myself, "I love him," and, "The school system is great out here."

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This past Saturday was rough. A woman that I have grown to love had a massive heart attack. She is still in the hospital, trying to wake up from a coma. Every day is a little better, she moved her head on her own yesterday! We wont know the severity of brain damage until she is conscience. They had lost a heart beat for 5 min. thus the brain had no oxygen for that long.

This is the first experience of someone close to me coming this close to death out of the blue. She wasn't sick. She is not old. There really was no build up to this! I really don't understand why. I know it isn't possible to see the "why." I can't see the "big picture." I know God does. I know He is a miracle worker. I know He is bigger than medical statistics. I know He is the ultimate healer. I know He answers prayers. But, what if His answer is, "No."?

I know all the "right" things to say, "We'll get through this," "God wouldn't give you anything that you and He couldn't handle together," "There is a reason," etc... It's always different when you are in the middle of it. It is no less true, but it feels different.

Please pray for her. She is important to me and a lot of people I care about.

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P.S. Happy Birthday Reagan!

Happy New Year!!! I figured I would start this whole "blogging thing." I mean, everyone is doing it, right? I have to tell you from the start, I will not be blogging every day. I will do it as much as I can. If you haven't heard from me in a while, feel free to contact me and remind me I have a blog that needs updating.

That being said, let me share a little about me. I am a California girl, through and through. Then how, you may ask, do I find myself FREEZING in the upper Northwest with an address that reads Minnesota?!?!? Well, as they say, "I had to see about a boy." (Whoever "they" are..."they" say and do a lot that gives us all kinds of statistics and sayings and excuses for our behavior) I miss my family and friends terribly, but I had to try this adult thing on my own...following the "man of my dreams." (cheesy i know, but no less true)

It took me 9 months to find a job out here but I finally found one last September. I always get a kick out of peoples' faces when they ask me what I do for a living and I say, "I'm in rehab!" Truth is, I work in a drug and alcohol rehabilitation facility. This facility is for men and GLBT clients in St Paul, Minnesota (the capitol of the state). I absolutely LOVE my job...not just the people I work with, but the job itself.

I still miss my family. Technology today makes it easier to keep in touch, but nothing beats a real hug from mom!

Hopefully I can keep this blog thing up to date for those who choose to read it. If not, I will keep this for myself.

Peace out...for now.